Thanks, Uncle Ray! That prayer has become one of my favorites..I've been praying everyday! I do find comfort in knowing that whatever happens, God will take care of everything.

I've always like the phrase, "Live Well, Laugh Often, Love Much"...it's so true. I like the idea and I've always tired to do this. Now, I want to do this even more. I'm going to live as well as I can, I still laugh..I always try to find humor in any situation, even if it's just a coping mechanism sometimes, and I will love more than I ever have before. So, if I tell you more or hug you more just bare with me. I look at all the gifts in my life and think why in the world did I ever complain about anything. I have so many wonderful "things" and not to mention the most wonderful friends and family. I've decided that I'm going to try to not complain so much, you know don't sweat the small stuff. Another thing that I've decided to do is release negative energy, what ever it maybe, I don't need it now.

Well, I have an appt. this morning at Georgetown with a high risk OB, just to check in and get her opinion on options. I will let you know what she has to say!

Warning, please don't read this blog if you are sensitive to the "dark side" of things....

You know, being diagnosed with cancer really sucks to say the least. My emotions are like a scary roller coaster, up and down. I try so hard to stay positive and strong but sometimes the fear takes the best of me. They give me a lot of steroids before and after chemo and I feel very agitated, tired but can't sleep, and these are the times that I feel down. I know I had a good day yesterday, but here comes a bad day or two. I feel like my sense of security has been stolen from me, for the rest of my life I will fear this cancer. Even after many people are confirmed cancer free, there is still no guarantee that it will not come back. I never imagined that at 30 years old I would have to think about my death. I feel like my children are in jeopardy of losing their mother and it breaks my heart! But all I can do now is fight with every thing that I have in my heart, mind, and good parts of my body and have faith that everything will be alright (words from Bob Marley, 3 little birds, my new theme song). :-)


Thank you for all your kind words, gestures, thoughts, emails, meals, and help! It really means the world to me and I find strength in your love and support. I know now that I have to live everyday to it's fullest and cherish every moment.

Well, another round of chemo under my belt! It went well...I feel just fine. I'm a little tired and thirsty but other than that everything is so far so good! My oncologist said today she "felt" better seeing me today then she did the last time. She spoke with my surgeon and said my surgeon sounded "optimistic". My tumor count has gone down...she didn't give me numbers but said it was heading in the right direction. She took my tumor count again today and we will see where that is soon. My blood counts are good and have been which is a relief! So, I would say today was a good day...another small victory in this battle! Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. Please keep me in them and I will keep you in mine!

Amazing!

I am blessed with the most amazing people in my life! I could not ask for anything more. Here is a picture of the Y-Me Breast Cancer walk that we participated in on Mother's Day 2007. This was 1 month after I was diagnosed and over 70 friends and family members showed up to walk. We raised over $8700 towards breast cancer research and support for women who are fighting this scary disease.The love and support that I have gotten is truly amazing. The words "thank you" can not even begin to express my appreciation and gratitude! Thank you so much!

Chemo Tomorrow

Well, I have my 4th round of chemo tomorrow afternoon. I hope all goes well...last round I felt a little fluish that evening. I'm just going to take it easy and sleep it off! I meet with my surgeon on July 12 to re-evaluate the situation. The plan for now is to have at least 1 to 2 more rounds of chemo so that we can get the baby to at least 35 weeks. We will then deliver and have surgery within a very close time frame! I'll have more details on July 12! Have a great day!!

Hi Everyone!

I thought this would be a great way to keep everyone informed about my health and I can also show off my beautiful babies, wonderful husband, sweet dog, and awesome family and friends!

Yesterday, we celebrated my 30th birthday! It was a fantastic surprise party! I had so much fun! Thank you to all who came out, it really means a lot! I was going to postpone the whole birthday celebration until next year...but yesterday was fun! :-) Thanks!